After losing my mom suddenly in 2011 and then clawing my way back to feeling "normal." I realized that people need people to get through the hard stuff and that it was in using that hard stuff to help others is what made it tolerable.

It was time to remember I am my mother's daughter and make some serious changes. No more imposter syndrome, no more swirling ideas and lack of follow through.  No more comparing myself to the highlight reel of others leaving me feeling like I didn't measure up.  No more waiting for perfection.  No more judging my successes to the rubric of society.  

It was time to prioritize my energy, my time with these kiddos, because time is fleeting and tomorrow isn't promised.  They are my reason for getting up when I fall and maybe why I'm so stubborn about regrouping and restarting when needed.

but this was just the foundation.  Years later after completing our family of 6 I ended up  finding a letter from my mom at the age of 16.  I was broken hearted to hear her disgust for her body.  I knew I had to do my part to rewrite the script for myself, my new daughter and help women do the same. 

After having baby 4 at age 35 I felt broken.  My hormones were out of whack, I was juggling more than ever and I was suffering from post partum anxiety.  It was during this time that I decided to get back to basics and focus on regaining my identity outside of mother and wife.  I also realized that if I didn't deal with all the negative stories about my body image I would unknowingly be passing them down to my little girl. 

I went from lack of belief and to doubling down on my strengths and have been so blessed.   Who knew right?!

I gained self awareness on my energy and now work less and make more by using cycle syncing and focusing on my strengths.  Creating boundaries and leaving space for the things that matter.  It's also the first time that I stopped yo-yo dieting and broke up with the scale.   Change and growth is good and so needed, but not from a place of hate.  Find more of my story over on TIKTOK. 

I stepped out and created a framework for women to discover their self worth and implement habits to get them closer to the women they want to be without the negative self talk and perfectionism.  It was time to control the chaos of my thoughts, emotions, actions and finally s claim what I deserved so I could better serve others.   Your worth does not come from a scale and self love and confidence is a skill that takes practice.  I'm excited to help you on this self love journey.

I am not perfect.  I am not for everyone.  I fall and fail over and over and it's totally normal.  Let's normalize the messy parts no one shows so you can get what you want.  

Are you completely inundated with plans, ideas and stacks of notebooks with random thoughts and plans that might work, but never see it through to the end?  It's time to quit being so hard on yourself and get support.  You can do it on your own, but if you'd like a guide; a cheerleader; a teacher and mentor then shoot me a DM.

If you're envisioning something you want and wondering who am I to do that, or I'm not good enough or that's for those other people who have their stuff together then you are seeing this for a reason.

It is your time.  It's time to bring all those stacks of random notebooks, abandoned habit trackers and partially used planners to  life and finally control the chaos of negative thoughts, perfectionism and finally love myself for who I am.  

P.S voice DM me on @angel.mcelhaney before you get distracted!

My reason for everything